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To whoever made this: thankyou.

Oh wait. You're 45 right.

I can' believe i just called ibu to ask her what's abah's age.

OMG.

Hahaha.

So yeah, happy birthday.

Thanks for eveything that you've done for me.

I appreciate it very much.

Hmm, yesterday was a wonderful wednesday :D

Spent the day with R.

Slacked at Marine Parade library.

Seriously, We had nowhere to go.

So i ended up suggesting Marine Parade library.

Haha.

It wasn't that boring.

I did some maths, doodled here and there.

Texted Yasmin and Sufi for like, the whole time.

Thanks though, haha.

Read a book, which i don't understand a single bit.

That book can really put me to sleep.

There were some TKGS girls infront of us and they were very loud i can say :/

Noisy.

Tsktsktsk.

Parents fetched me after that.

Went City Square.

Kinda boring.

I mean, very boring.

Bought some stuffs.

Ooooh, and i ate beef steak! :DD

I've been craving for that since, forever.

I was like the first one to finish up the whole thing.

Well, pfft yeah.

My stomach was grumbling the whole time eversince i got outta my house.

It was VERY loud.

I think R could hear it when i was sitting beside him in the library.

Hahaha :D

Hmm, saw some nice clothes at Cotton On and i am so gonna buy em!

Ibu's gonna buy for me!

And i'm gonna get the shades too.

Pleasepleaseplease.

Hmm, i'm gonna get a new watch soooooon!

My current watch is so tak gune already.(but still can read the time)

The golden thing dropped off.

Sheeessh.

Can't stop thinking about it.

I am gonna remember 1710310 forever in my heart.

Its raining now.

Sitting on my bed, with the lappy in front of me.

So warm and comfy.

But there's just something missing.

YOU.

I MISS YOU.

I'm still waiting for your text ):

Text me please.

)':

There's still loads of things that need to be completed by sunday.

Projects, homeworks, online assignments.

Goshhhh.

Its not even like a hoilday to me.

There's just too much of A.MATHS homework.

FXCK EM LA.

Internet is sucha distraction!

FXCK.

I miss you.

iloveyouverymuch.

I heard something I didn't want to, and my heart sank like a sinking boat.

Camp was OK i guess.
Not that fun though but i love the Campfire v. much.
Not really "very much" actually.
Overall, campfire was the best.
Basically, for the first two days, it was fxcking tiring.
Yeah basically.
Obviously i love, like the 3rd day.
Didn't do much. - Breakfast, Bunk cleaning, slack, slack, slack, Prize Presentation, and camp's over.
Waited for sis for like 3 fxcking hours and with nothing to do, i looked moronic.
No seriously, i look like a dumbass there.
Well, R was with me. (:
I was lethargic and sleepy to the core.
Zzzzzz.
Apparently i slept at 12 and woke up at 5 plus.
How can i not be tired?
For both 2 nights, i can't really sleep that well eventho i was sosososo tired.
Kept bugging Shafinaz that i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. (Hehe sorry shaf)
I did "stuffs" like praying to God that he won't ever leave me and whatever shitszx.
Seriously, i've gone bonkers.
Even Shafinaz said that i'm obsessed.
Ohmyyygodd.
People shouldnt be friends with me.
Heehe.

Hmm, first and second night, we watched 'Shutter' for our night movie.
First night, we watched until 12 midnight.
And i swear, it was horrifying.
Too bad i can't hug anything there.
Or even cover my eyes with anything.
I was empty-handed.
It wasn't that bad on the second night cos i had no mood for anything and so i didnt really concentrate on the movie.
Sorry Shafinaz cos i lost my mood all of a sudden because of B.

I thought that i would lose some weight after all the activity ive participated in the camp,
including all the trainings, and the PT.
But nope, maybe because i still consume lotsa food.
Sigh.

ZHAKIRAH.
YOU.
ARE.
SO.
FAT.
THAT.
YOU.
NEED.
TO.
LOSE.
SOME.
WEIGHT.

Fuck yeah i am.

Okay i'm done shitting with all the stuffs that happened during the camp.
Not really "ALL" laa.
Maybe it was just a summary of what had happened.
Lemme see.
I didnt talk about the Hike to ECP.(because there is just this person that i have an aversion to)
I didnt talk about what happened during first day of Field Cooking.(eeew its revolting)
I didnt talk about what happened after Prize Presentation.
Inter-UG Games.(very boring i can say)
Hmm, MORNING EXERCISE.
Well, i accidentally turned on waterworks during the punishment everyone(only SJAB people) had to do.
I tried to control myself from crying but i can't cos it was just so painful.
My legs hurt SODAMNMUCH from all the StarJumps and JumpingJacks we had to complete.
Fxck it very much.
I endured the pain at first but simply can't because it was getting worse.
I kept controlling myself and eventually i can't take it anymore and just broke down.
It was only in the morning and my face was all red and puffy.
Duh-uh big girls do cry okay.
Pfffft.

Campfire was awesome.
Screamed out loud like a crazy person.
Well, pfft, everyone was high that moment.
Shafinaz and i stood up on the bench and sang/danced with the music.
Wow, it was so much fun until all of a sudden my good mood just vanished.
I hate it when that happens.
I was all the way up and then suddenly i was all the way down.
I am so unpredictable.
Urgh.

Kaayy, stop talking about UG camp.
I'm home now, Safe and Soundly.
And right after i got into the cab just now, sis just got me bent outta shape.
I was all torn up.
Read real badly.
My heart sank after what she had told me.
Maybe what she told me was true, maybe not.
I call this Heartbreaking Facts.
It feels like i'm being double-crossed.
It feels like i'm being stabbed in the back.
Betrayed.
I thought i could trust you.
I mean, i trusted you.
I thought that i can count on you.
What happened now?
What sis told me just tore me apart.
I'm wrecked.
Now that i knew about it, i don't know how to trust you anymore.
I really need to talk to you asap.
I don't want this matter to be left unsolved.
I don't want to be hurt all the way.
I don't even want to leave you.
I want to gain all my trust i had for you back.
I just wish you were not like that.

"Don't trust him that much. Maybe he's the guy that is not faithful to his girl. Who knows." - Sister said this to me.

I don't even know what to do now but just wait for your text or call.
Oh God, please save me.

My trust is broken in two.

iloveyouverymuch,

say you'll never ever let me go-

~

I don't wanna care about other people.
I don't care what they wanna bitch.
I don't care what they think about me.
Seriously.
Stop bitchin'.
Stop gossiping.
Start minding your OWN business.
Start zipping your fuckin mouth.
Ass.

GET. A. LIFE.

Its in my soul. Its permanent. I can't take it out or I'll bleed.

A bxtch like me.

Practically, these are the things i did yesterday.

Miss him.
SMS-ed.
Cam-whored.
Telly.
And tuition.

And i spent most of my time thinking of him :/
Kay shh.

__________

Went JB after tahfiz on Saturday and it wasnt that boring.
Surprisingly.

Blaahblahblah.
Reached home like around 1 in the morning and had to wake up early the next morning!
Madrasah.
Tired.
Sleepy.

I am just lazy to interpret more.
These are the pictures for Saturday.
Sunday pictures, there's just too many of it.(CAM-WHORED)
Maybe i shouldn't upload ALL of it cos its just my face, my face, and my ugly face.

ZHAKIRAH
15
I'm not who you think i am.


"A heart that hurts is a heart that works."


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next time NOT GONNA UPDATE HERE ANYMORE.BYE-BYE. Can't look back. There's no doubt about it. amaths. Wonderful wednesday. live your live. walk on fire, Heartbreaking facts. x3
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