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"Heartbreaking facts." on 14 March 2010
I heard something I didn't want to, and my heart sank like a sinking boat.
Camp was OK i guess.
Not that fun though but i love the Campfire v. much.
Not really "very much" actually.
Overall, campfire was the best.
Basically, for the first two days, it was fxcking tiring.
Yeah basically.
Obviously ilove, like the 3rd day.
Didn't do much. - Breakfast, Bunk cleaning, slack, slack, slack, Prize Presentation, and camp's over.
Waited for sis for like 3 fxcking hours and with nothing to do, i looked moronic.
No seriously, i look like a dumbass there.
Well, R was with me. (:
I was lethargic and sleepy to the core.
Zzzzzz.
Apparently i slept at 12 and woke up at 5 plus.
How can i not be tired?
For both 2 nights, i can't really sleep that well eventho i was sosososo tired.
Kept bugging Shafinaz that i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. (Hehe sorry shaf)
I did "stuffs" like praying to God that he won't ever leave me and whatever shitszx.
Seriously, i've gone bonkers.
Even Shafinaz said that i'm obsessed.
Ohmyyygodd.
People shouldnt be friends with me.
Heehe.
Hmm, first and second night, we watched 'Shutter' for our night movie.
First night, we watched until 12 midnight.
And i swear, it was horrifying.
Too bad i can't hug anything there.
Or even cover my eyes with anything.
I was empty-handed.
It wasn't that bad on the second night cos i had no mood for anything and so i didnt really concentrate on the movie.
Sorry Shafinaz cos i lost my mood all of a sudden because of B.
I thought that i would lose some weight after all the activity ive participated in the camp,
including all the trainings, and the PT.
But nope, maybe because i still consume lotsa food.
Sigh.
ZHAKIRAH.
YOU.
ARE.
SO.
FAT.
THAT.
YOU.
NEED.
TO.
LOSE.
SOME.
WEIGHT.
Fuck yeah i am.
Okay i'm done shitting with all the stuffs that happened during the camp.
Not really "ALL" laa.
Maybe it was just a summary of what had happened.
Lemme see.
I didnt talk about the Hike to ECP.(because there is just this person that i have an aversion to)
I didnt talk about what happened during first day of Field Cooking.(eeew its revolting)
I didnt talk about what happened after Prize Presentation.
Inter-UG Games.(very boring i can say)
Hmm, MORNING EXERCISE.
Well, i accidentally turned on waterworks during the punishment everyone(only SJAB people) had to do.
I tried to control myself from crying but i can't cos it was just so painful.
My legs hurt SODAMNMUCH from all the StarJumps and JumpingJacks we had to complete.
Fxck it very much.
I endured the pain at first but simply can't because it was getting worse.
I kept controlling myself and eventually i can't take it anymore and just broke down.
It was only in the morning and my face was all red and puffy.
Duh-uh big girls do cry okay.
Pfffft.
Campfire was awesome.
Screamed out loud like a crazy person.
Well, pfft, everyone was high that moment.
Shafinaz and i stood up on the bench and sang/danced with the music.
Wow, it was so much fun until all of a sudden my good mood just vanished.
I hate it when that happens.
I was all the way up and then suddenly i was all the way down.
I am so unpredictable.
Urgh.
Kaayy, stop talking about UG camp.
I'm home now, Safe and Soundly.
And right after i got into the cab just now, sis just got me bent outta shape.
I was all torn up.
Read real badly.
My heart sank after what she had told me.
Maybe what she told me was true, maybe not.
I call this Heartbreaking Facts.
It feels like i'm being double-crossed.
It feels like i'm being stabbed in the back.
Betrayed.
I thought i could trust you.
I mean, i trusted you.
I thought that i can count on you.
What happened now?
What sis told me just tore me apart.
I'm wrecked.
Now that i knew about it, i don't know how to trust you anymore.
I really need to talk to you asap.
I don't want this matter to be left unsolved.
I don't want to be hurt all the way.
I don't even want to leave you.
I want to gain all my trust i had for you back.
I just wish you were not like that.
"Don't trust him that much. Maybe he's the guy that is not faithful to his girl. Who knows." - Sister said this to me.
I don't even know what to do now but just wait for your text or call.
Oh God, please save me.
My trust is broken in two.
Camp was OK i guess.
Not that fun though but i love the Campfire v. much.
Not really "very much" actually.
Overall, campfire was the best.
Basically, for the first two days, it was fxcking tiring.
Yeah basically.
Obviously i
Didn't do much. - Breakfast, Bunk cleaning, slack, slack, slack, Prize Presentation, and camp's over.
Waited for sis for like 3 fxcking hours and with nothing to do, i looked moronic.
No seriously, i look like a dumbass there.
Well, R was with me. (:
I was lethargic and sleepy to the core.
Zzzzzz.
Apparently i slept at 12 and woke up at 5 plus.
How can i not be tired?
For both 2 nights, i can't really sleep that well eventho i was sosososo tired.
Kept bugging Shafinaz that i miss him, i miss him, i miss him. (Hehe sorry shaf)
I did "stuffs" like praying to God that he won't ever leave me and whatever shitszx.
Seriously, i've gone bonkers.
Even Shafinaz said that i'm obsessed.
Ohmyyygodd.
People shouldnt be friends with me.
Heehe.
Hmm, first and second night, we watched 'Shutter' for our night movie.
First night, we watched until 12 midnight.
And i swear, it was horrifying.
Too bad i can't hug anything there.
Or even cover my eyes with anything.
I was empty-handed.
It wasn't that bad on the second night cos i had no mood for anything and so i didnt really concentrate on the movie.
Sorry Shafinaz cos i lost my mood all of a sudden because of B.
I thought that i would lose some weight after all the activity ive participated in the camp,
including all the trainings, and the PT.
But nope, maybe because i still consume lotsa food.
Sigh.
ZHAKIRAH.
YOU.
ARE.
SO.
FAT.
THAT.
YOU.
NEED.
TO.
LOSE.
SOME.
WEIGHT.
Fuck yeah i am.
Okay i'm done shitting with all the stuffs that happened during the camp.
Not really "ALL" laa.
Maybe it was just a summary of what had happened.
Lemme see.
I didnt talk about the Hike to ECP.(because there is just this person that i have an aversion to)
I didnt talk about what happened during first day of Field Cooking.(eeew its revolting)
I didnt talk about what happened after Prize Presentation.
Inter-UG Games.(very boring i can say)
Hmm, MORNING EXERCISE.
Well, i accidentally turned on waterworks during the punishment everyone(only SJAB people) had to do.
I tried to control myself from crying but i can't cos it was just so painful.
My legs hurt SODAMNMUCH from all the StarJumps and JumpingJacks we had to complete.
Fxck it very much.
I endured the pain at first but simply can't because it was getting worse.
I kept controlling myself and eventually i can't take it anymore and just broke down.
It was only in the morning and my face was all red and puffy.
Duh-uh big girls do cry okay.
Pfffft.
Campfire was awesome.
Screamed out loud like a crazy person.
Well, pfft, everyone was high that moment.
Shafinaz and i stood up on the bench and sang/danced with the music.
Wow, it was so much fun until all of a sudden my good mood just vanished.
I hate it when that happens.
I was all the way up and then suddenly i was all the way down.
I am so unpredictable.
Urgh.
Kaayy, stop talking about UG camp.
I'm home now, Safe and Soundly.
And right after i got into the cab just now, sis just got me bent outta shape.
I was all torn up.
Read real badly.
My heart sank after what she had told me.
Maybe what she told me was true, maybe not.
I call this Heartbreaking Facts.
It feels like i'm being double-crossed.
It feels like i'm being stabbed in the back.
Betrayed.
I thought i could trust you.
I mean, i trusted you.
I thought that i can count on you.
What happened now?
What sis told me just tore me apart.
I'm wrecked.
Now that i knew about it, i don't know how to trust you anymore.
I really need to talk to you asap.
I don't want this matter to be left unsolved.
I don't want to be hurt all the way.
I don't even want to leave you.
I want to gain all my trust i had for you back.
I just wish you were not like that.
"Don't trust him that much. Maybe he's the guy that is not faithful to his girl. Who knows." - Sister said this to me.
I don't even know what to do now but just wait for your text or call.
Oh God, please save me.
My trust is broken in two.
Slowly but surely i'm turning this around.
But there is something that i haven't found.
Sooner or later,
you will be finding out.
Sitting there waiting isn't so safe and sound.
iloveyouverymuch,
