It was you who let everything into my heart, and it was you who once again awoke my spirit.
Stop breaking my heart.
Its not gonna end no matter what. I'm still holding onto my promise. Trust me for once.
I know you, and i don't care of what others think of you. You're still you. And i love that YOU.
zak-
"I'm losing hope and fading dreams." on 28 January 2010
Will not be replying yr text messages. SORRY. MY PHONE IS SCREWED. I shall reply whenever i feel like replying. No important stuffs, sorry for not replying yo.
Okay, i've been updating my blog now, wow. I should stop this. I can't be online everyday. I gotta study man. Zzzzz. Facebook, blog, MSN. DISTRACTIONS!!!!!!!!!
"Life could be so predictable."
What is going on? WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME? I cry everyday, i feel moody, i don't have mood for anything. Maybe you're the cause of it. Damnzsxc. I wanna see youu tomorrow and talk things out with you. There's just some things i gotta tell you. I'm sorry.
zak-
"dadeedoo." on 27 January 2010
oh i laughed my ass off yesterday night watching this video, my sis showed me. can't really sleep yesterday night. i laughed and fell down from my bed -.-
lovelovelove it.
OH MY GODDD. I'M STILL ONLINE FROM JUST NOW, AND HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCH ON MY HWS. I'M GONNA BE DEAD. Kay zhakirah. Wtv.
BYE AGAIN.
"You just need more time for it." on
What a daaayy. What happened to me just now? Whole class knew about it. Oh my. Sudden break downn, and I can't help it. It was unexpected. I hate it when i cry. It was, baddd. Thanks Fhateen and Ashada for making me laugh just now. And Miss Tan* was, erhhhhh =.=
I don't like it. D: Hmm, i'm okaayy noww! School was normal. Free period during physics :D
Kay skip skip skip to after sch. It was, OMG. I wanna elaborate but i don't think i should. Siggggggggggggghhhhhhh. What happened! Hmm, i'm giving you more time cos i know you need em. I understand you :)
Ah, my eyes hurt. I gotta wear specs 24/7 now. WTF. I'm going to be blind. Well, i'm tired now. SHORT POST AH. Gotta bathe and do homework noww! Tuition later :/
~ I'm still holding on.
I'm sorryyyyyyyyyyy ):
Kay bye.
Should i put my blog on private?
XOXO;
"loveeeeloveeee." on 24 January 2010
hello! i'm in love. not yr business. right? k.
6 upcoming tests next week! this is stressful. and, ohh, i'm still online and can blog about this. pfffffft. i needa studyy! oh, new specs nowww! luminous bluee laa. wow.
goshhh! tuition later! gonna reach home late again. okaaay. bye.
i love youu all!
"Unbeautiful." on 19 January 2010
I've been told, whats done is done. To let it go, and carry on.
F'd up.
I'm sitting with tht 'person' now. Everyday. Every lesson. We made a deal. OMG. Helppp meee ):
There's 2 projects that i have to complete! Geography and P.E. Can't this be any worse!?
Okay basically i had fun in school just now. P.E was the most awesome-est moment. Fhateen, Yasmin and me had bad luckkkk. I really think it was because of Tian Mu, who passed th bad luck to Yasmin. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. F, Y and me were laughing all the way. Even when Mr Ho was talking, F, Y and me were laughing our ass off. Seriously. A lot of things happened. Can't help it when we were supposed to do star jumps. OMG. HAHAHA. :D Yeah, seriously, there were LOADS of things that happened todayy.(interesting things) Funnnn la! I'm starting to love my class~ Woooooooo!
Omg, i hate having periods! ): Fxck it.
I'm having heartaches. Zzzzz.
Oh, you're just too shy to start talking to me. Come on!
18/01/2010 ; 9.27 PM
"Much misses." on 14 January 2010
This will be a short post. I'm kinda busy lately. Also, lazy to update though i'm always online :/ A.Maths is killing me ): I am soooooooooooooooooo stressed out.
"Being too self-conscious now." on 08 January 2010
I'M POSTING!
Okay life's a bxtch.
Yeah.
School was a bore.
CCA was fun. SOMEHOW!
I love asking th sec ones to join our CCA.
They're so, innocent, so cute.
Just some of em.
There were like a few minahs.
Come on, sec ones, minahs? eew.
Followed Amalina to her house before CCA.
We were rushing, and when we got down the bus, we raaaannn and dashed to school.
Late for CCA!
Haha it was fun though.
Talked about our times in 2009 and laughed so loudly in the bus.
Hahahaheeheehoho.
Sooo much to elaborate but i'm not really in th good mood now.
Oh somehow, somewhat, i love my class.
My classmates, they're so kind.
Its so much different than last year.
Thanks Harry for what you've said to me.
It means so much to me.
I know, i have to make friends and i can't simply let my mouth shut all the time.
Note to self: SPEAK UP MORE OFTEN!
Oh i know, my hair is ugly.
I just feel insulted.
Whatever.
Flag day tomorrow.
Gotta wake up earlyyyy.
Gonna meet Yasmin and Fatheen first.
Oh, i really am rebonding my hair this time.
No doubt about it.
You'll see.
I just hate being insulted.
Thanks to some of you, who have always been there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on.
Nazeha, i love you so much.
Best Cousin For Life <3
And to some of the rest, thank you.
I love you guys so much.
"the feelings never gonna fade." on 06 January 2010
HELLO!
well, i'm trying hard to not use lappy again cos i wanna concentrate on studies!
maybe i won't be updating for a while.
oh, i should concentrate on studies now, and i find all th subjects i'm taking now are kinda tough so i really really gotta work hard.
no more blogging, no more chatting no more updating facebook for the time being.
so yeah, BYE-BYE!
ON HIATUS!
"Loads or things to think about, plus you." on 05 January 2010
I feel nerdy today.
Oh maybe because i am nerdy.
Okay so yeah, school was okay, wayyy better than yesterday.
Except that i still hate my hair.
It gives me this feeling.. that i can't explain.
Maybe.. i just have low self-esteem.
No not maybe.
I have low self-esteem.
I'm self-conscious, and thats for sure.
Actually i got lotsa things to say here but i my mind just went blank everytime i begin my post.
Sooo, no lessons in school just now, but yet, i'm friggin tired.
I had cramps all over my body yesterday eventho i did nthg in sch.
Oh, Mr Lim chose our Chairperson and V.Chairperson just now.
Chairperson: Benji.
V.Chairperson: Kietthipong!
Thanks to me, Yasmin, Alena and other someone who voted for Kietthi :P
Well, vice-chair, GOOD LUCK.
I am sooo talking shit right now.
Oh and anyways, maybe changing CCA is not a good idea for me.
I've made up mind, and i am not gonna transfer CCA.
Yay?
Or Booohoo?
Maybe i shouldn't care of what others would say or think about SJAB.
People think its lame.
Well yeah, that CCA sucks, to be honest.
I'm sorry but i just have zero interest in that CCA.
Pffffffft.
Like what i've promised in the 'Letter to myself", i shall not quit that CCA, and will slowly have passion for it.
Maybe one day i would realize that that CCA is fun?
Oh who cares?
Wait, stop being egoistic. - NOTE TO SELF.
I am talking nothing but craps about schooool!
Bahh, i am tired ):
And y'know what?
My mum set parental controls on this laptop.
How greaaaat is that huh?!
Stupid.
Idiot!
Each thought of you drives me wild.
Oh, I'm losing my mind.
How can i ever stop this?
I'm SO not being myself these past few days.
Sometimes, i would suddenly break down, and cry.
I'm miserable.
School's bothering me kinda lately.
Eventhough its just the second day of school, i got lotsa things to think about.
I'm so stressed up.
Friends. Family. Studies. Life. The world.
Its all revolving around me!
OMG. Its more than i could ever imagine.
There's more to think of.
what is actually going on??
i just hope you're fine.
ohhh, maybe someday..
"I hate school for life." on 04 January 2010
Zzzzzzz!
Well hello.
School was.. discouraging.
I barely talked to anyone in school today.
Fxck my hair.
Fxck my class.
Fxck the school.
Urgh, i hate school!
Hate it hate it hate it.
Form teacher was.. okay though.
Mdm Safia and a new teacher, Mr Lim.
He loooooooves to talk.
And lemme exaggerate on th LOOOOOOOVE.
I swear he can never stop talking, even for once.
After 1 min of break, he continued talking.
Some of his stories were okay yet bbbbboring.
It was a good thing that i had to change place at first..
Some people know whyy.
I mean, THANK GOD i didnt get to sit with him.
Actually it was not that bad, err i mean it was okay sitting with him.
But too bad huh.
So currently, my partner is Xi Wen.
Okay whatever.
Ohh yes, good thing Yasmin sat near me. (:
Basically, there were nothing interesting that happened just now.
Lessons would start as per normal on wednesday! :D
So i guess there would be no studying in school tmr.
Teachers are gonna choose the committee members and all those stuffs.
Yeah, whatever crap.
I'm starvingggg now.
Oh yeahh i'm fasting.
Okayy, i still miss Amalina nw ):
ARGH I HATE MY CLASS!
"lazy bum." on 03 January 2010
hello.
i've been so so so lazy to upadte nowadays.
webcammed with amalina ytd and it was soooo fun :D
i swear that i'm so not ready for sch tmr.
urgh.
well, its a good thing didnt have homeworks for the holiday!
yeah, crappp.
currently webcamming with amalina again :D
i love her new specs!!!!!
wooo.
i am bored.
gotta off soon.
habbo is getting lamer and lamer -.-
okay people!
are you ready for schoooool?
hahah, k random.
bye uh!
"back back back!" on 01 January 2010
Hiya! My internet is baaaack, and i can blog now for sure.
But i'm still temporarily using the lappy now.
Maybe i should update later if i have a chance to.
There's someone in my house :o
The computer maannnnn!
Okay wtv.
My life's been so dull these past few days.
I kept rotting at home and i think i'm already decomposing.
Boooo~
Oh yeah, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Seriously, i amm sooooo not ready for a new year and school, omg.